I fear people questioning how the characters fell in love.
I fear telling the reader my people are falling rather than showing them.
I fear not doing my characters or their story justice.
I fear not making the reader a part of their journey.
I want the reader to feel every step of the way--the first meetings, the innocent touches, the friendships that grow to more. Then the passion and growth and healing the characters go through both separately and together. I want readers to experience it. I want them live it.
I'm in a stage I go through with every book where I wish I could read my work in progress through a someone else's eyes and experience it from the outside. I want to know if they're falling right along with my characters, if they're seeing the characters stumble into something that has the ability to change their lives. If they're living the book, experiences or romance with my people, because that's such a huge part of it--the journey. I am all about the journey and not just magically appearing at the destination.
Another confession... I kind of like that fear. And I'm not real big on being afraid but I think healthy fear is important. When I stop feeling afraid that is when I will worry. I think most things that are important to us are at least a little bit scary. It's part of the way we know how much it means to us--or at least that's how it is with me. If I didn't love what I do, I wouldn't be afraid of doing it wrong. I'm not saying that's right or wrong or how other people should feel. It's just how I feel.
"Some books you read. Some books you enjoy. But some books just swallow you up heart and soul." ~Joanna Harris
When I'm reading there is nothing like being swallowed heart and soul. It's what I strive for when I'm writing, as well.
What books have you read lately that have swallowed you heart and soul? Is there something you love enough to fear?