So, recently I made a decision. Because I do think challenges can be a very good thing, I've decided to start giving myself more challenges that I can control.
That brings me to the book I'm writing now.
I'm scared of it. Truly scared. I'm afraid I can't do it--that this book is beyond me. That I don't have what it takes to write it the way it deserves to be written or that I'm going to emotionally break down while doing so. LOL.
On the other hand...it's beautiful. Or has the potential to be beautiful. Maybe the most beautiful story that has ever popped into my head.
So it's challenging...but that beauty makes it worth it. This is a challenge I can control. A challenge I can grow from. A challenge I'm feeling pretty lucky that I have right now. It helps to take my mind off of all the other...stuff :)
Here's a super small teaser of what I'm calling, "Nyrae's broken heart" for now. Obviously, unedited :)
“Maybe love doesn’t have to make sense. It’s wild and reckless. It frees you and captures you at the same time. It’s beautiful and heartbreaking. We fear it, while at the same time, it can be the only safe place we know. It’s this strange, terrifying, fucked up, perfect emotion that shouldn’t make sense. Not if it’s real.”
Next week I think I'll talk about finding inspiration in unusual places. Sometimes you might have to hunt for inspiration when you need it, but if you don't give up, you'll find it.